Be the same and be changed

Lord as I woke up this morning I came into realisation that I have to be the same when I'm by myself and when I'm with family and others. I'm a hypocrite - it's merely because of my own idol. Myself is my idol, I want people feel good about me, want people accept me, I want to get human's approval, to get praise of men - those things were like a honey, only they won't last forever, and can never satisfy my soul. Am I selfish? I think the question should be sounds like this: Why am I selfish? - Answer: it is because of my 'idol', if I don't satisfy my 'idol' I can feel very devastated that's why I serve my own 'idol' - and selfishness is one of a lot of things as the results of my own 'idol'

So every time when I'm acting differently (public vs personal) - I have to fervently ask for God's mercy and forgiveness so I can conquer this 'idol' by enjoying Him above all things.

I have to be the same, when I'm in the church or at work, when I'm with family or with totally strangers.

I have to be changed, to conform like Christ, the mediator between me and Our Heavenly Father. Not just a superficial change that happen externally, but I have to be changed internally so it will change and will drive me to change externally. Without this I will always be like a hypocrite.