God is not like an apple buyer

Last week I had a chance to do some shopping at Coles just because my sister has gone for 5 weeks holiday, kinda miss her though. I bought some apples, interestingly as normal person would do when they buy apples, they would basically pick and choose which apple is better than the other one.

I arrived at home, I was going to have a perfect looking apple, only then did I realise there was a  black spot underneath the label. I think God is like that, we as human is trying to hide our deficiencies by doing some good deeds, anything...you name them, we want to feel good because we are doing the right thing, hoping there won't be any convictions in our heart about bad stuff that we've done. But God sees underneath our skin, he sees right into the deepest of our heart. The issue is buried under our heart. That's what we call sin, sin isn't always about doing bad things, you can do the good and righteous things but before Him are still like a filthy rags.

 

I'm thanking God, he is not like an apple buyer, he didn't "choose" me because I'm good or perfect, he chose me just because he chose me. Can I try to be good so he can choose me based on my performance? No! He chose me because he has the right to choose on whom he would choose. He will have mercy on whom he will have mercy.

Is it my will then? Well if I can't really choose him, how can I have a will to choose him at the first place? The question is not whether I have my will or not, but whether why I will what I will?