Where is God?

"Where is God? This is one of the most disquieting symptoms. When you are happy, so happy that you have no sense of needing Him...you will be, or so it feels - welcomed with open arms. But go to Him when your need is desperate, when all other help is vain, and what do you find? A door slammed in your face, and a sound of bolting and double bolting on the inside. After that, silence.......You may as well turn away. The longer you wait, the more emphatic the silence becomes." CS Lewis (in the midst of deep grief after his wife's death from cancer)